Codependency Is Based on Fake Facts

Codependency is based on a lie. Its symptoms develop to cope with the deep, but false and painful belief – that "I'm not worthy of love and respect." In the chart to the left, core symptoms of codependency are in red, but almost all the symptoms revolve around shame – the shame that enterprises rejection. This entire system operates beneeth our awareness, and until we know it and feel it, we're caught in its grip.

Symptoms of Codependency

The symptoms of codependency are either caused by shame or are or are defenses to feeling shame. Most codependents grow up feeling ashamed of their real feelings, wants, and / or needs. As adults they deny, devalue, and / or do not express them to avoid their shame. Some people can not identify them at all, and willingly put those of others first. This leads to anxiety, depression, obsessions and addictive behavior. Later, they feel anger and resentment or hurt and uncared about. Especially during courtship, they accommodate and please in order to be loved by someone to avoid a breakup. Once married, there's often disappointment when the relationship feels unequal.

Shame is a feeling that leads to self-destructive thoughts and negative self-evaluations, which produces low self esteem. Self-esteem is not so much a feeling, but how we think about ourselves. When we have toxic shame and make a mistake, whether real or imagined, our feelings of guilt are exaggerated and irrational. If we do not believe we're worthy of love, we must control what we show to others. We do not communicate what we feel, or express our needs and wants. Instead, we have hidden expectations, and manipulate, hint, or become passive-aggressive. We hide who we are. Authenticity is compromised, and communication becomes dysfunctional. When we can not be real, discomfort suffers. Initially, there may be wonderful romance, but often couples' behavior becomes ritualized; sharing and closeness that first bought them together happens less infrequently, because they conceal anything that might upset the status quo for fear of feeling rejected or judged.

Still, Shame-anxiety – the fear of being judged or rejected – haunts codependents. To cope and to get what they need and want, they attempt to manipulate and control others. This becomes a necessity when we're dependent on someone loving us or just staying with us in order to feel okay about ourselves or just to feel safe. Being alone for some people triggers feelings of shame, fear, and loneliness, while others manage fine on their own, yet are very reactive or lose themselves in relationships. This is their dependency. Their mood and happiness depend on someone else's, and their self-esteem depends on acceptance by other people. They then have to manage others people's feelings and behavior. People-Pleasing and giving are ways to do that, as are creating drama, threats, and demands.

If our well-being and self-esteem depend on another person, it makes sense to think a lot about his or her motives, intentions, feelings, and behavior in order to feel secure. This accounts for codependents' focus on and obsession about loved ones. Careaking others is another form of control. If someone is dependent on me and needs me, then s / he will not reject or leave me. Also, if I'm the one giving and helping someone else, then I do not have to be vulnerable. My partner can be the vulnerable, "Underdog," while I can feel strong as "Top dog" and Underdog's protector, helper, or confidant. Such an imbalanced relationship breeds anger and resentment by both partners.

Many codependents are perfectionists. In their mind, they must be perfect, because the alternative is that they will "look bad" in some way or feel like a failure. Mistakes or flaws create great discomfort due to shame arising within. They may feel angry, angry or driven to fix something, when really they're trying to fix their own inner, unconscious, sense of inadequacy. They live with the "tyranny of the should's" fed by shame anxiety and perfectionism. Making mistakes, being human, feeling ordinary, are not acceptable; these are experienced as shame.

Recovery from Codependency

Learning new behavior, such as learning to be assertive, go a long way to raise self-esteem and build autonomy (rather than dependency). These steps can empower you and give you a greater sense of control and happiness in your life.
Changing lifelong habits is not easy or quick. It requires real courage and the support of a therapist or experienced sponsor in a 12 Step group to do the recommended work in the Twelve Steps. However, for enduring recovery, we must truly undo the lie that envelopes us. Confronting and healing the core issue of shame are required for reflecting change and to prevent relapse into unhealthy relationships.

© DarleneLancer 2017

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